I have always been one who prides myself on organization and being disciplined with my time. Recently that just hasn't been happening and I find myself totally out of sorts. With that feeling comes disorganization, no productive creative times and a feeling of pure yuckiness!!! I love going into my studio, looking at everything and being inspired, yet can't bring myself to sit at my art table and actually finish anything. Now just the week before, I wrote a blog entry about my beautiful six postcards I made for the exchange, mailed them out and was very happy about them. Some people might say that it has only been a week since you have created anything, don't be so hard on yourself!!! I would say true!!
My thoughts have just been on not making the most out of the time I have lately. I do work full time as an Optical Manager, so my time is not my own during the week. I truly have to carve in time to play and be creative. It is one of the things that centers me and calms me down, yet it is the last thing I am able to concentrate on at the end of the day! This weekend was no different, I had all these plans, yet accomplished nothing, artistically speaking. I watched mindless television with my husband and made Brunswick stew (now that was yummy I must say).
Monday mornings are great, that is why I always try to post on my blog on Mondays, to me it is a fresh new beginning of the week. We now have daylight savings time, so no more driving home from work in the dark (truly depressing!).The days are beautiful and I choose to think differently. I want to watch television less, be more productive and cherish each minute of each day. I know that sounds a bit extreme, but I truly mean it. As artists, we think differently, we think with dreams and a big heart. I am so happy for my artsy girlfriends who get to devote themselves to their artwork fulltime, yahoo to them. I have to just take another direction and use the time I have more wisely. I can't do it all, it all doesn't have to be perfect and when my art is calling me...I want to run to it! I have all these ideas running through my brain of what I want to create, now I need to put it into action. I want to watch less tv, phone conversations, computer, facebook, twitter....wow those things do take an amazing amount of time to keep them going!!! I am conflicted, because it is the way to keep in touch with my art girlies!
Next week I celebrate having my blog one full year . . . it has changed my life and I am so proud of it, more of that to follow! Have a blessed week and if you have any suggestions for me, please share. I always love hearing from you. I know I am not alone in these feelings nor will they magically disappear! I am living consciously that is the first step. I am looking forward to my Big Wish Ecamp next week. That is what I am going to concentrate on fully and enjoy what is in store for me!!